rumination will be the death of me.


one-way decision-making in a multi-stakeholder endeavour.


what i'd give for consistency.
consistency that would drive out insanity.


"You deserve someone who's crazy about you."
- New Girl 2 -


that feeling when you and your band make good music.
smooth, intoxicating, exhilarating.


thoughtfulness is felt the strongest only when it is taken away.


then, rediscover life.
it is bewildering, unfair and often incredulous like that.
maybe i should joke about it instead, like hospital staff do.


there are things we dont say.
things we hide away.
for once they are known, there is no going back.
back to yesterday.
but it is an even greater terror, to live in the dark believing a lie.


note to self.
"Where there is deception, there is no relationship. The real problem is that when you are with someone who is deceptive, you never know what reality is. As one woman said: It makes you question everything."
- Dr. Henry Cloud -


as the music dies, something in your eyes
calls to mind a silver screen
and all its sad goodbyes
so i'm never gonna dance again
the way i danced with you.

perfection at 7:45 PM